My New Life

I was very recently diagnosed with Alzheimer's. I have had so many appointments and MRIs. I feel I've taken the diagnosis well, trying to stay upbeat mostly for those around me, but since I live alone, there are a lot of times when the gravity of the situation hits me and I get scared of what's coming. The thought of forgetting everything terrifies me. I hate the thought of forgetting my loved ones. I tell everyone I'm okay but I wonder if I'm lying to myself. I have a very good friend who is taking care of me so I am lucky there. I'm not afraid of pain, just the idea of forgetting things and people. I so much don't want to be a burden on anyone. I'm sure my feelings are not unique to me. I never expected this. I'm almost 82 and am healthy and I thought I would have a good old age. All I can do is put my life in God's hands.